First For July

I've been abandoning my blog for far too long. Not that I was too busy or anything. It's just... I seriously got nothing to blog about. Guess no one has been pissing me off! Hahaha...

Of course, I still have my old issues running in my head, but I decided to just stop thinking about them too much. Whatever will be, will be. Que Sera Sera. Hopefully with this kind of thinking, I'll be better of.

I've been wanting to watch Zac Efron's 17 Again. But seriously, with my limited connection of friends, want to find a single person to watch with is so difficult. Well, actually I found one but she was too busy to catch a movie. =( And also, people tend to forget to ajak me to movies! Sob sob.. Anyway, I just went ahead and watch alone! Who cares! Zac is such a drool-worthy! Yumz! Hahaha... I also finally watched Transformers! I quite like it actually. I find the movie is cool! There are lots of actions in it and you can actually see the transformers in battle compared to the first movie where you don't know what's going on until someone crash boom bang. But storyline and plot wise, there's nothing much going on. But it's OK! The main purpose is to watch the Transformers! Optimus Prime, Bumblebee and... JetFire! Cool old guy! ;)

The last time I partied was during Chinese New Year, I think. Can't really recall. So, it was really fun to be able to party again last weekend. I think it is credited to good music and good company. Funny folks that can make you laugh all night and be crazy! It seems I can only party in Malacca. Due to yet, my limited connection of friends, I can't seem to hit the KL scene. What's wrong with me?! Attitude problem, probably. LoL!

Weekend is here and I don't know what I'm going to do. I've no plans! Damn shit. Probably rot myself in the room. The more I write, the more pathetic my life sounds. OK, I should stop now before I decided to hang myself. Nah... just kidding. =P

Farewell For Now, LDG!

As a disclaimer first, this post is dedicated to one of my all-time favourite Korean actors, Lee Dong Gun because it was just recently reported that he'll be enlisted to the army next month for 2 years! Oh no, no Lee Dong Gun for 2 WHOLE years. Going to miss him lots! Hopefully when the 2 years is over, he'll be back to the entertainment scene! He's such a good actor that it is really a shame if he didn't continue acting then.

While I was browsing for his songs on YouTube (Yes, he sings too!!), I stumbled upon this MTV where he starred in it. He looks so HOT here! Yumz! The song is also catchy. ;) Not to mention the title is so coincides with his departure BUT I won't say it's final.

The Last Farewell by Big Bang

I wish for his return to the K-drama scene soon! Dong Gun-Oppa, Sarang Ae! :P

Going to miss his dopey eyes and smile! :P

Nokia N97

Many months ago, if some would have remembered, I blogged about the Sony Ericsson Xperia - the IT phone during its launch. But after looking and feeling the real thing in my hand, it doesn't impress me like how it does on the website. So, I scratched the idea of owning such an expensive and high-tech phone.

Nokia N97

The Nokia N97 has been creating a buzz among my office people. When I catch the first glimpse of it, its features somehow drawn to me. I have to admit, what impresses me first was the qwerty keyboard. Then when I got to know more of its functions and features - Facebook & Friendster applications, Wi-Fi, 5.0 megapixel, GPS and loads more to discover, it does create a desire in me.

So, in the end... I REALLY WENT AND BOUGHT IT! It really cost me a BOMB! Like serious MAJOR BOMB! Not to say I am regretting to get the phone. But somehow, I wasn't very excited about it. Firstly I know those around me would say I am crazy to pay such a price for a phone. And worst, scold me for buying it. Well, some really did scolded me crazy! Although it actually is my money that I am spending, with them scolding me really made me feel even more down. I was already in an aftershock state as I never bought something so expensive for myself before. I don't spend so much on myself except for the time I bought my car. My aftershock state even went into making me only slept for 3 hours. I woke up in the middle of the night and couldn't sleep back. =(

Lucky thing, there are a few friends who were supportive. They told me not to be so disappointed about it. Once awhile I should pamper myself and treat like I am rewarding myself. After all, I am spending my hard earn money on myself. Furthermore, I don't change phone always. Thanks to them, I am feeling a tad bit better. =)

The one person whom I'm afraid will scream at me was my mother. BUT surprisingly, she didn't scream at me at all. She was speaking to me normally and saying why I buy such an expensive phone where I could have just save the money. Well, to make my money worth, I am going to use this phone for a long time. I'm estimating about 3-5 years. Yes, I know what's the price I am paying it for and I'm going to make sure I'll utilise it often. So, please please, can stop calling me crazy ah? I'm really turning crazy, you know?

Anyhow, I'm now beginning to accept the fact that I am now owning an N97. It takes time. With all the negativity around me, it takes MORE time. I just want to pass this period calmly. I don't want to suffer anymore aftershock just because I bought an N97. So, I hope everything will just die down after this and let me be in peace with my phone. I'm hoping for that!

Nothing's Change

Things can be simple for me. You ask me a question, I can answer you honestly. If you don't ask me, I'll keep it to myself. But weirdly, people can make things complicated out of my simple nature self. I figure why want to make things hard when they can be easily solved? Pride? Ego? Not used to? What??

When I'm ready to solve things, the other party is not. So, what can I do but to just let it be as it is? I don't want to complicate things till they turn ugly. What I can do is to live with how things are already what they are. If somehow approaching the matter doesn't work, might as well accept it and adapt it. Yes, it's difficult to go through all that but that is the best option that I can find.

Although I've already made my decision, somehow I still can't understand why want to make things difficult when they are actually quite simple. Sigh! Anyway, I hope everything is OK as we said it is. Nothing's change.

Sarang Ae Boys Before Flowers

Boys Before Flowers

Whenever I am feeling down, I always occupied myself with watching some dramas or movies to distract my mind and possibly, to shed some tears. I was quite thankful that when I was hit by my down period, I was following the current hit Korean drama, Boys Before Flowers.

Boys Before Flowers is actually the Korean version of the manga, Hana Yori Dango or some might know it better with its Taiwanese version, Meteor Garden. So basically I know how the storyline goes but yet, I still watch the 3 versions - Taiwanese, Japanese and Korean. When Meteor Garden was a hit drama then, I was probably still in secondary school. I remembered F4 then was so popular that I too was hit with the F4 wave. When the Japanese version - Hana Yori Dango appeared, I was in college then. And finally, when the Korean version came up with its own edition, I'm now working already. So these 3 versions really went through my time transition.

If you were to ask me which I like best, seriously I can't tell. Three of them have their own attraction. I find three of them are good on its own. Each of the version brings out their own uniqueness despite sharing the same storyline. But, I got to admit, among the F4 of the 3 versions, the Korean F4 is distinguishably the most good looking ones. Especially Lee Min Ho who acted as the leader of F4. What attracted me is very much his cute good looks and height (185cm!) and, an acting skill to boot too. I'm such a sucker for guys with height. LOL! Second after Lee Min Ho is Kim Bum. Although he's not as tall as Lee Min Ho, but he still is tall (181cm!) and he has that killer smile that can make any girls swoon! And of course, he's quite a good actor too. The rest of the F4 are not too bad either. Kim Hyun Joong's looks actually grow on me slowly especially when he cut his hair short. So cute then! Hahaha...

The Boys Before Flowers' soundtrack is superb. Among the 3 versions, I like the Korean soundtrack the most. The songs are really moving and suitable for each of the scenes that are being played. It is so perfectly match that I actually could tear, which I really need it then. Even if I'm just listening to the songs only, I still can tear. Damn! One of the songs is by SS501 titled Because I'm Stupid really really is a spot on song for me. Why? Well, it's for me to know, for you to find out! Hahaha...

Although I've finished the whole drama, I'm still having a little withdrawal symptom where I'm still hangover over the show! I want to watch Lee Min Ho again! Hahahaha.. Besides Lee Min Ho, the whole drama really saved me from being even more down. Good timing to be watching it, I'll say! Hahaha.. Hopefully I'll be able to watch more of Lee Min Ho's acting while Kim Bum is set to be shooting a few dramas already. Can't wait! Sarang Ae Boys Before Flowers! Hahaha... =P

Losing End

Today I discovered something that I wish the person would have told me. Instead I have to hear it from somebody else. Although many may deem it as a small matter, and I myself agree that it is, I figured when it comes to that person, no matter how small it is, we still will share. Probably all this while it was me the only one who has been sharing. That's why I feel, no matter what, I'm still at the losing end.

Time and time again I was reckon to be someone who treat people good. But, why is it treating people good and still be at the losing end? What went wrong? I still don't understand. Probably I'm just easily forgotten. Or maybe I'm easily taken advantage of. 

Now, I don't know how to compose myself. I'm not sure being angry is a wise thing to do. Or pretend nothing is wrong is the better option. I really am dumbfounded. But one thing I do know, I'm feeling disappointed. I've been disappointed again. How do you mend that? 

I Still Survive!

Two years ago, an anonymous person came and commented in my blog saying I should seek professional help because of the way I kept on posting emotional and negative entries, which I still do till today. When I told him/her that I'm a strong person despite all my complaints on how suck life is, he/she called me a liar, making me someone who is in denial. I wrote a super lengthy reply to him/her proving that I don't give up on life although life at that moment was damn sucky, because I have dreams to pursue and I'm a fighter all the way. You guys should read the comments as I didn't know I could voice out so boldly! LOL! 

The line that struck out now was this, "I will still hope to read your blogs in 5 years time to see whether you can prove to yourself what you'd said in here." Well, it has already been 2 years and guess what... I still have not committed suicide! I do not have depression nor am I on drugs, alcohol or am anorexic. In fact, I gotten myself a realiable job and I've ballooned. I don't think the dear anonymous is still reading my blog, but I just want to share this eventful incident that happened 2 years ago as it really brings back memories. Supporter and Swee Ping really supported me then! Thanks again, guys! 

I got to admit, 2 years ago I was a real moaner. But, I've grown to shut my mouth although at times I do need to let my emotions out. I've learned that there's no point in complaining as it will just make you more upset. Is either you do something about it or you just accept how things have gone. Throughout last year and this year, the people in my life have started to change as I felt the distance between us. Although it did got me sadden to see such thing happened and I was unhappy for a period of time to see that our strong relationship has drifted apart. I tried my best to be back to how things were, but I guess... you just can't clap with one hand. 

Thus, I've accepted the shits that had happened. I accepted that things change. I accepted that there are things that are not meant for me. Things that I wish so hard to obtain, but they will never come to me. Although I still got pissed at life occasionally, I'm still living it just because.... I'm anticipating for better things to come. I hope one day the people around me would treasure me as I have treasure them so much. I hope one day.... I'll be able to live life to the fullest. 

But right now, I'll still continue to fight. I've passed the quarter life crisis already and I'm thankful that I've survived from that. It wasn't a walk in the park during that time. But, I made it on my own. Building myself up and making myself feel more numb towards life-changing experiences. So, to the anonymous who "predicted" I will be in a slump, I'm glad that you got that wrong.  Because, seriously... I wouldn't want you to be right. I won't change my ways of venting my negative and emotional feelings out here because I don't find anything wrong with that. If that's the way to make me feel better, I don't see why not just continue doing it. :)

I don't know why am I writing this all out at this hour which I should actually be in bed. I guess is the song that I'm listening to now that made me to be in such a "life discovery" mode to write. Anyhow... just to share the bits of my blog's biggest highlight. Not sure whether Supporter remember that time or not. For the first time.... I got 20 freaking comments for one entry! Amazing! Hahaha...